Not Fleeting

I thought this anger was just a feeling...

It started off with a certain dislike towards him - me not wanting him around - it suddenly turned to me, not wanting to see him smile, not receiving any texts, not engaging in any conversation.

It has come to the point that when I do see him, I'll just acknowledge his presence by a mere nod. And that's it.

I walk away. Not asking how his day was. How he is with work.

Nothing.

I thought this feeling would pass. But no, I truly dislike him.

Most certainly, upon confrontation - if he decides to finally ask if there's something wrong with us - I won't go around in circles.

I'll tell it to him flatout.

Josh. I'm bi. And I'm starting to like you, more than I should. I need to distance myself from you. You can still come over, if you really have to.

Then I'll just leave, speechless.

He'll get the picture.
The things I wouldn't say like - I need to distance myself from you... Because at any second, I might grab your neck and kiss you torridly. Your scent and every graze of your touch arouses me so much that I feel like I could leap out of my skin. You can still come over, if you really have to. But know that if you do, it's not my fault if I turn out to be your first kiss. I just can't resist.

Hai.