Fudge

If you've been reading my blog posts since I started, you should pretty much get a picture of my story.

I started out, venturing into this world, trying to discover what lies ahead.
You know, for a fact, that I'm into guys. As proof - I view gay porn.
But then, I've also confessed that I do get turned on with - straight porn.
I think that in itself would be a clue as to who I am.
Far more than me coming from green to blue.
Or for my 5'9 height, fair complexion, and other things.

But more importantly, if you have been reading this.
You know, that this shit - is all about me coming out.

And yes, I DID. I finally did.
But as the days progressed.
I just FREAKED OUT.

I don't know where I'm heading. I got even MORE lost.

WHY?

Because I'm discovering a liking towards women.

Who do I blame?

No one really.

Just me, searching for my identity.

And here I go. Saying fudge (fuck if you don't get that).

Because I ended up undoing myself.

I hope to those who are as confused as I am, for your sake, know what you're getting into.

And for my sake.. DEAR GOD.
PLEASE, find me someone who I CAN TALK TO.
Whose intentions are not for sex. BUT are still young ENOUGH, and GOOD LOOKING enough for me to concentrate on.
I'm not asking for much.

I'm just looking for a connection.