By the end of this month, he'll move in next door.
Just a few days ago, I just couldn't understand what I was feeling. A mix of excitement, but more of, annoyance?
He's so hard to crack. He keeps a lot of things to himself and he just forces a joke to ease the tension.
He keeps his secrets.
He goes with his machismo.
"Ang tunay na lalaki, hindi nagsasabi ng nararamdaman"
F THAT.
He'll be my neighbor. But we won't connect in anything. I'm frustrated.
There's a tension when I lean close to him, as he checks his social networking accounts.
He shows me this picture - I lean close, my legs slowly graze his, without being too obvious - he's touchy after all. This isn't a problem.
But it's killing me to know that all these afterthoughts are only happening in my head.
Yes, I'll say it. I want him.
But no, I can't mess it up now.
I don't know how we'll end up once he moves in - will he visit often? what will we do? will he make a move? will he finally admit he's gay - or straight? will he tell me he's in a relationship?
Will he explain why he has 3 damn phones?
Why all the mystery?
He boggles my mind so much, it's giving me unwanted stress.
My stomach's in a rumble, and I can't feel a thing.
I'm emotionless. And I don't know what to do.
I don't feel like talking to anyone, but I can't ignore them.
I cancelled all my plans.
I am alone.
And it's the only thing I know what to do, because right now.
I just hate everyone.
