Love, Actually

I think I'm in love.
And it was in a moment that I least expected it.

After falling in love the first time around, I would have imagined my heart to have learned - same sex relationships won't work, for me, at this time and for the people I fall in love with.

They're straight. As I believe them to be.

Will I be adding Joshua to my list?

I just cannot help but think about him. Look at him, even in photographs. I miss him, constantly.
Much the same way I felt about Mike.

But damn. This will not work, and I know it.

Plus, I think I finally realized that I'm not really that straight after all. Sure, I may like girls. But I've never fallen in love with one. What does that say about me?

Gay.

Hmm.

Still getting used to it.