Reconsidering

I finally decided to come out. But no one's asking me yet.

I'm waiting for a scenario where:

1. Drinks are present

2. Circle of friends are in conversation

3. Someone just asks

But somehow. No one's asking anymore. However! There was a time when we were drinking I heard someone ask if I was gay! Someone defended me though. If only I wasn't drunk. I could've answered her back.

*Everyone's face in shock... or not really*

But I'm also reconsidering. I'm on the verge of eliminating any possibility of any same sex encounter. Or if I will, I'd take Jason Mraz's statement - "until the right guy comes along"

YES. Jason Mraz is bi. I was shocked as well. Wow. I idolized him, but I never knew he was bi.

He actually gave me the added confidence that I need when I say it.

So yea, I want a girlfriend. I want my first time with a girl. A girl who knows I'm bi and will respect me for who I am. I will love her completely. I will hold nothing against her. I will be faithful. I will love her with my entirety.

Sorry. But unless we meet in person (and I find you SHIT HOT, I mean like - Ian Sommerhadler HOT) - that's when I'll be game. The only time I'll be willing to take it to the next level is if you look like him or for a more Filipino version - Victor Basa. I want someone with a ripped body.

Unless you're someone I've liked regardless of your looks (i.e. Joshua, and only him). Then I'm game. So basically, it's either Joshua or an Ian/Victor-look-a-like.

I ask too much so that I can avoid doing it with the same sex.

:)